Dr. Grigory Simkin 9.12.1940 - 11.15.2007 |
Dear Doctor was an old sinner,
Fond of the bottle and artery-busting food,
Having been around a few blocks,
Not all of them in good neighborhoods.
He was an untidy old bird,
Neither politically nor spiritually correct,
Hopeless with money or anything practical,
Bad at following rules, instructions, and beaten tracks,
And instead treading crooked paths
That no one sane and sober would ever choose.
He hoarded books – on the shelves, on his desk,
On the chairs, the bed, the floor, and in his memory –
And cited them with gusto.
He loved playing with knowledge and with his cat
That smelled of his cologne.
He watched mind-numbing action flicks and wept over Mozart.
He told blue stories and cracked salty jokes
That would keep you chuckling for days
And that you could carry around with you
Like medicine against gloom and respectability.
He could be a character in his own off-color anecdotes,
Unable to resist making people laugh even at his own funeral…
Every now and then he was wrong and confused,
He did absurd and exasperating things
And bumped against life’s sharp corners
Too often to be called a wise man.
And he could certainly use a few of his own therapy sessions.
Dear Doctor was a righteous man.
He spent himself with suicidal generosity
Helping, healing, and giving comfort and peace.
He was real and knew what was truly important
And could see through the veil.
He could make a sacred feast out of bread and vodka
And any day a holy day.
He knew how to become a deity that rejoices in imagination,
A playful god who exhales, creating the worlds.
He knew how to travel through the unknown,
Grasping at the filigree web of hypotheses
And weaving your own myth.
Wounded and bruised, his heart in tatters
From his many sorrows, but never bitter,
He chose to love what was difficult to love
And see the good in both the good and the rotten.
He wielded an exquisite arsenal of soul-healing tools,
With an occasional sidelong glance at Papa Freud on the wall,
And did magic with his energy.
He helped people to become unafraid
Of their formidable true Self
And of their mothers-in-law.
My unwavering advocate, he would say,
“You are goodness and light,” –
Until the many pieces of me
Didn't want to fly apart anymore.
He let me take my own breath away
Every time I discovered a new reality,
Filling twelve notebooks with extraordinary dreams
And the thirteenth one with my thesis.
He walked me through my many battles,
My clunky weaponry and my love of destruction,
And helped me make peace with the mirror.
He would guide me in flights
Into the realms from which I come,
To meet my kin and foe and gather their teaching stories
To make living in this world more tolerable
Until one o’clock next Wednesday...
As a young man, he once saw Nevsky Prospect
Set ablaze by the new sun
And decided that forever reaching toward a distant light
Was how he wanted to live.
Wherever a band of other holy satyrs
Is now roaring with laughter at his impious tales
Of interstellar mischief,
Here, his wish has come true.
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